Saturday, February 10, 2018


I have been treated with acupuncture 8 or 9 times, including a 'miraculous' tennis elbow cure. One time, (for a stiff neck) it had no effect at all, once it could have played a role in recovery, but it could have been something else just as logically, and the other two times, I am sure it played a role. But I admit, I can not forcefully argue with someone who is skeptical other than to say it happened to me, and I know my body and I listen to it and I can feel what is going on in it. But that is too subjective – so forget I said it. Anyway, all of the 'cures' I experienced were  'mechanical' injuries, shoulder, neck, elbow, wrist. So my experience is pretty limited.

I taught English at Xian Medical College (now University) in 1985-86. My main class was about 30 doctors, most late 20s to mid-30s, (my age at the time). They wanted to learn English, to study in the west, and I was successful getting almost all of them to pass Tofel after one year. I had a good relationship with all of them – we were together through a lot of turmoil and stress as well as good times. We would have discussions about medicine and Chinese success and failure in science. Did you know the Chinese successfully reattached a hand on a western sailor in the early 1960s? That kind of micro-surgery, meticulous, painstaking in a Chinese way, was not done in the West back then. Anyway, in spite of that and other points discussed, some of my Chinese doctor-students had no faith in Chinese medicine or acupuncture in particular. All of them were scientists and knew that they had to study in the West to continue their work. One or two privately expressed to me that they didn't think acupuncture or any Chinese medicine was worth the time, effort and faith that Chinese people put into it. At the time I thought that those views were related to their disillusionment with China because of the recently ended Cultural Revolution, which had affected all of the students in some way or another. But of most of my students thought acupuncture and other Chinese medical techniques could be effective in some cases, when applied by the right doctor. And several had great faith in it.

I had a chronic case of 'tennis elbow' that I developed before going to China and it continued to plague me. One day when I was in front of the class teaching, one of my students noticed how I was holding my elbow crooked and close to my body as I wrote on the blackboard with the other hand. After class he asked me about it, I described it and he offered to treat it. I was very skeptical, but we went back to my apartment and he put one needle in in the soft area between my thumb and forefinger, one about 8 inches above my wrist, and one near my shoulder. He twisted the one on my hand and it felt like a funnybone 'shock' through my arm. He removed the needles and my elbow was instantly cured. It never recurred either.

The doctor who treated me for the elbow, Zhang, was the most respected Doctor in the class. His father had been a famous doctor in Shanghai before “Liberation”. His family suffered throughout the 50s and 60s, (Hundred Flowers Movement and Great Leap Forward, Four Pests Movement, etc) because he was from a relatively rich family. He told me as a young medical student he rejected Chinese traditional medicine. Undoubtedly the Maoist campaigns of the post Liberation period were a factor in this rejection and was related to his disappointment in his own country at that time.

But he re-discovered the effectiveness of acupuncture compared to western medicine when he was exiled out in the deep rural countryside during the Cultural Revolution. There, far from the cities, lacking access to basic modernity, he had no other means of pain alleviation for his patients, (except herbs he might find). So he taught himself acupuncture from a copy of a 2000-year-old text. He began slowly, teaching himself techniques from the ancient text, at first using it for simple cures, (like he would do for my elbow), but eventually, he even used it as anesthesia for open thorax surgery. He claimed he also was able to use it on livestock because he was also the local veterinarian. I can say I have never met a more humble, hard working or self-effacing man in my life. He was behind in his English proficiency when we started and was older than most, but he quickly caught up with and passed most of the class. I taught these doctors 3 days - 12 hours a week for an entire school year so I can say I got to know him. I believed what he told me.

People only have a limited time to learn what they do in life. Everything we do has an economic "opportunity cost". Opportunity cost (OC) is the time (and money) it takes for whatever you do.  That OC is the price you pay for what you don't have time to do. So if a modern person is busy studying what we call medical science, then she has to pay the OC  - forgo the opportunity of not learning the medical lessons of the distant past.  While we have advanced in many ways, we still only have the same amount of time as our ancestors, so we are subject to that 'opportunity cost' through time.

In some ways, this OC is the most important factor in what separates us from the past.

There is no reason to think people who lived 5000 years ago were not as "smart" as we are, that their minds could not handle deep, subtle thought and analysis. They paid attention to signs, the traces of information that we would miss – because they were not distracted by our modernity. Polynesians navigated the Pacific by watching and noticing subtle changes in the waves, the wind, and the kinds of fish and of course the sun, moon, and stars as well. They could see things that no modern man can. Medicine in the great civilizations before 'science' was practiced by serious men. Moses Maimonides, the greatest Jewish philosopher of the Middle Ages was a medical doctor by profession. He had no 'science', as we know it, but was renown for his medical skill around the Mediterranean. Knowing from his writing just how profound of a philosopher he was, and how dedicated he was to the truth, how could we think he thought any less deeply as a Doctor?

If a Chinese "traditional" doctor, or a medieval practitioner like Maimonides, trained and practiced to 'listen' to the body, in ways that  we consider 'unscientific' was still able to produce good results – (and they did – as did Galen the Greek, known as the "Father of Medicine" because of his detailed writings from 2000 years ago) -  then it is because while our doctors are struggling with all of the science of their field, such as genetics, chemistry etc, Chinese traditional doctors spent their time watching and looking and learning the hidden messages that the body sends out. The smells, the palpitations, the contours of the organs that they could feel through the skin, etc all portend changes and disturbances in our biological functions. These ancient doctors created 2000 years of documentation, (from completely different traditions).  So in one sense, it is in part what we call science because their methods are still repeatable, (if enough time is taken to study the methods.)

Is it as effective or predictable as modern medicine practiced in the west? For most cases, I don't think so, and most modern traditional doctors probably would not think so either.  It would be foolish to ignore the advances of Western medicine.

But - Do I believe in acupuncture? Yes – mainly because I have never had a cure as quick or as total as what I had when Zhang healed my elbow. And my faith is such that I believe that if Zhang said he could cure me of a deeper disease with it, I would trust that he could. I think for a practitioner who dedicates himself to the art, acupuncture can be very effective. In some cases (such as my frozen shoulder of 5 years ago that the orthopedic doctor told me would take six months to heal – and was healed within three weeks by acupuncture) it is a powerful tool, in some cases better than the best techniques the West has.

Which brings me to the 'placebo' effect. What is that? A double-blind test where one set of participants takes a sugar pill and it cures them. Western doctors laugh and say it was the placebo. What does that mean? 

“Oh – well – it's in their head – they wanted to believe it so it worked”. 

“Oh – why?” 

“Well – the body is mysterious and works in strange ways...”

Yes – it does. And I think Chinese medicine might be better in sync with those mysteries than western medicine.

Sunday, January 28, 2018

Legacy of Spies

I just finished Legacy of Spies, and for me it completes the half century  old circle, bringing The Spy who Came in From the Cold main characters Alex Leamas and Liz Gold into focus with Smiley’s war with Moscow Centre.  What Leamas knew and didn’t know, and why is revealed in all those documents that Peter Guillam took out of the Circus, during the secret investigation of Bill Hayden.   We learn of a safehouse that time forgot, hidden away in plain sight like a lost monastery, managed by an abbottess who is seemingly oblivious to the ugly unloyal present, yet when confronted with it, slips happily back into opposition against the firm. Guillam is an old man now, navigating the American-like historical amnesia of the new MI-6, filled with self-absorbed millennials in tracksuits. The real horror that all of Le Carre's novels warned us of has come to pass.  It’s not the final victory of heartless Sovietness, but the ascendancy of  American gadgety totalitarianism,  of bright, clean, windowless holding rooms, and blatant careerist officers who mindlessly disdain the past, (and the tricks used to catch Hayden)  as dirty and corrupt.  The question of “What  are we really fighting for?” which weighed on every action and word from Smiley is a forgotten irrelevance. Cooperate or we will take your pension, is the answer to any question.
But as they said on another Watchtower, you and I have been through that and now we see the other side and are treated to one more trip through the files, the piecing together of the evidence.  We see the “other” evidence to understand why Leamas and Gold actually died, and how it was connected to the fall of Hayden and eventually, the fall of Karla.  And we even learn what happened to Karla after walking across the Oberbaum Bridge.
The ending reminded me of Frodo’s final meeting with ancient Bilbo hiding out in the library of the Elves, where Bilbo seems young again. In the a final burst of the childlike perspective, Gloomy George is no longer dour, but strangely upbeat, seemingly younger than Guillam at the end.  Its a brief view in that golden hour of Alpenglow - he is finally in the library with his German poets, where he always wanted to be if he got the chance.

Sunday, May 14, 2017

China then Into Russia

May 10 Wednesday

Leaving China, from the old Beijing Station just off of Jianguomen, (the eastern end of Chang’an Da Jie) nearly 30 years after leaving that same station in the fall of 1987 has left me melancholy and bit stunned.  It is a different country than the one I remember, built up obviously, everything modern and up to date including the people.  But, as with the old China, there are very few broad generalizations about the new China that can’t be shown to be wrong in a multitude of ways.  It is too big and too complex to apply easily digested bromides to it and expect them to mean anything.

We are headed north toward Mongolia and then on to Irkutsk.  My compartment mate is from Singapore, speaks good Chinese and English of course.  I was only in China for about two weeks.  I didn’t have to go to Russia, I had not bought any tickets or scheduled anything.  I could stay in China another two or three weeks, wandering around some of the many cities I have never been to.   It does seems like I should have stayed longer, visited more places, because I am so at home here.  But it was enough.  Everyday, I walked, focusing on neighborhoods rather than the tourist exhibitions.  I did those too, but I tried to wander where I wasn’t supposed to, and focusing on who was directing the focusing rather than looking where I was supposed to look. And I tried to talk to people as much as I could.  By the end my language came back pretty well, I had the rhythm down, and I would have gotten even better. In fact I am continuing to get more “fluent” which I define as being able to speak without thinking, of self translating.   I don’t have to think to speak now, except occasionally when I search for a word or phrase, but I don’t stress about it, just try and find another way to say it.  It just comes out now easily.

Out here in northern Hubei, it looks like Eastern Oregon, the rolling plains, semi-green, like the high plains of the west, little rivulets at the bottom of the arroyos, villages, Chinese villages with walls, faded slogans painted, cows, donkeys eating, and power grids traversing the hills.  There was even a big wind farm of those giant electrical generating enemies of Don Quixote,  that seemed identical to the ones back in Kansas and nearly every other place in the west. Some kind vetch is planted in miles of terraces, to stop erosion.

One of my Chinese friends convinced me to install, or rather re-install WeChat on my phone.  I think it is better in many ways than Googletalk, now called Hangouts.  My wife and I have been using it for the whole trip, and will probably continue to - you can make a free phone call with it essentially, as well as all the other stuff - photo and video sharing and the like.  It has a nice basic design.  

I spent most of the last month walking, around Saigon, Hanoi, and Xian, Beijing.  My schedule is compressed, I guess because I needed to do it first, and planning was hard.  Timing the visas.  I know a little more now. One thing I didn’t anticipate was that I would be in China during the “wuyi” holiday, “5-1”,  May 1st, International Workers day. It is a three day weekend and everybody was traveling, which meant getting train tickets to where I wanted to go was nearly impossible.  I started in a Chinese southern city, but couldn’t get to Chongqing or Chengdu.  By luck managed to find a ticket to Xian, so I decided to visit fewer cities and stay longer.  I’ll come back to Xian in a few paragraphs.

Thursday, May 11

I got a good night’s sleep. At about 1 AM the Mongolian border patrol came on the train woke everybody up and took our passports.  They are harsher with the Singaporeans and Malaysians than with me or with the Aussies couples with berths in this car.  They were a group of about ten men, all between mid-thirties and late forties, planning to take a Land-Rover tour of deep Mongolia, stay in yurts and ride horses, (none had ever ridden a horse before). The Mongolians were not impressed by them, or me for that matter, but to me they were outwardly polite. They had a harsher tone when waking them and the Malay-Singaporean Chinese give it back to them. The inter-Asian jawing and bitching can seem a little disconcerting, but it doesn’t really mean much.  In the end, it was all hot air, there were no consequences for anyone.

It is chilly, actually, I was cold for the first time since landing in Saigon nearly a month ago. I am on the train, my Singaporean roommate is in the bunk above, sleeping off the heavy drinking he and his buddy’s from his city and Malaysia did yesterday.  They started early, at 11:30 am yesterday and kept my cup replenished too. It was too much for me, and I slept much of yesterday afternoon. But none of that today. I want to be awake.   I feel good. It's about 5:30 and the sun is up.

I should have written more over the last month because I had what I thought were many great thoughts and insights as I walked around, but there was too much to do. Saigon and Hanoi, both hot, kept me out on the street, especially Hanoi. There I was mesmerized, often sitting outside drinking beer at a tiny cold food and beer bar next to a  busy intersection watching motorcycles avoid each other.  Vietnam would be a great place to retire, so warm and beautiful with mountains and beaches and people who for some odd reason, like Americans.  It is open and free, not to say that the Communist party there is any less severe than in China, but only that it is about 10-15 years behind, both financially and in the physical infrastructure.  So they can’t afford to control things too tightly.  That was China in the 80’s when you could do or go where you want because they couldn’t afford to watch you too closely.

For example, the internet is open in Vietnam.  I would guess the reasons are one, to encourage tourism and two that they have decided that for now, they don’t want to devote the human resources needed to staff a Bamboo Firewall or whatever it would be called. And of course, it is Vietnam, not China.  China is different.

Anyway, now, out here in Mongolia, I think that these open spaces, out here in the desert, is conducive to an American thinking about things more than in the crowded cities of China and Vietnam.  I feel comfortable out here in a strange way, the land seems so familiar, you almost expect to see shit-kicking cowpokes leaning on a corral.  Contrariwise, urban Chinese friends visiting little Portland Oregon have told me they feel oddly uncomfortable with so few people around, and didn’t want to go look at the mountains or ocean where there would be even fewer people.  The park next to Naito Drive along the WIllamette in downtown Portland was as much nature as they could stand.

I have taken a lot of pictures, not necessarily good ones, and will have lot’s to say annotating them.  I assume I will have time to do that because this “wide open spaces” view from a train is going to get very familiar as I head out across Siberia after getting to Irkutsk.

Because I had been a Google Gmail and Hangouts kind of communicator before getting here, I was isolated from social media once I left Vietnam for China.  Gmail seems to get delivered about once a day in China in the wifi zones of hotels and coffee shops. A Chinese person told me that there is schedule well known on campuses where they have to use it to communicate with the West, and that this will keep somebody at their desk finishing work so as not to miss the daily drop.  It seemed to me it was at about 6 PM China time. Of course Chinese businesses just pay for a VPN on their phones or wherever to get around it.  Although I noticed even well off Chinese turn it on, use it, then quickly turn it off on their phones.  There may be other penalties beyond the economic costs, I don’t know.

Anyway the first city I visited in China was my shakedown cruise for the shock that continued to astound me over my stay there.  Places I knew, places I was familiar with were gone, even as I stood on the exact spot that I had before 30 years earlier.  It was like in the movie Back to the Future, when Marty went back to his hometown where BIff (Trump) was now President, but they had flying skate boards etc.  They buildings are all tall, shiny, cleverly architected and never ending, spreading out toward the horizon that used to be farmland.  The streets are clean and wide, the freeway intersections looked like hypergeometric rings, and are filled with European luxury cars.   The phone network extends down into the subways, as well as out deep in the hinterlands from trains, and the parks and temples all looked like DIsneyland.

It is the change in the people though, the people that I noticed. The young fill the streets, all dressed to display their own unique style. They are not self-conscious about it either.  They stare at their phones while walking, which might account for some of it, but almost nobody stares at me, especially not the young.  Maybe it is because I am old, and old people regardless of their hue or hair color, are not the eye candy they used to be. The class differences are starkly apparent on the street compared to the 1980s. There are the rich, who you don’t see much on the street, but usually getting into or out of Rolls and Maseratis, the educated young, the old and the poor.  In Beijing, it seems like there is relentless warfare on the poor, particularly around Tiananmen,  with the soldiers and police checking IDs of anyone who dressed a little shabbily. And they caught them too, sitting groups of them down on the sidewalk, photographing them, waiting for the paddy wagons. You need special permission to live in Beijing, perhaps even just to visit it.  

The educated and well off youth are so much bigger than before, both in girth and in height.  For me, with my own particular lens on life, it was the women and girls who stunned me.  Chinese women have of course always been alluring, but now the streets are like a high end fashion runway.  Such amazing beauty! Who could sit at a laptop writing when that was all around you.

Settle down, I tell myself, you are a 65 year old retired American, not particularly rich nor disposed to all of the potential difficulties such thoughts could lead to...only here for the show thank you. And anyway, you could see the attitudes were much different than back in my day here in the mid-80s.  The West and America held an immense fascination for China then, for many reasons.  Westerners were rock stars just by not being Chinese.    Now there is no mystery to the West anymore. And the rules have changed too, for the better.  There are no special places in train stations for westerners to sit, no (apparent to me anyway) rules barring Chinese from entry into some hotels. That kind of special treatment made me uncomfortable back in those days, but it seems to not exist anymore.

All of this has been in place for a long time of course, mostly I think as an acknowledgement by the government that things had to change after the events in Beijing in May and June of 1989. Even though the Party re-exerted control, things were different and would never be the same.  It was a truth everyone understood even while not acknowledging it too much.  The events in Tiananmen were really what freed China. I know that sounds like blasphemy, but I think it is true.  After Tiananmen, I think the Party (about 10% of the country are party members) made a deal with the people, that you stay out of Government, and we will stay out of your lives.  It can’t be denied that this had its beginnings when Deng Xiaoping ended the Cultural Revolution and said, black cats, white cats who cares as long as they catch mice, and to go get rich. Discrimination against capitalist-connected families ended. Travel restrictions ended. (Except now being re-applied against the poor moving into the cities.) You could work where you want, bitch about the government to your family and friends all you want, just don’t be too public about it.  Chinese could now leave their jobs, start businesses, and say pretty much what they wanted in private.  The intrusive apparatus that kept in touch with people’s personal thoughts and attitudes was slowly dismantled.  I think Tiananmen really made all of that possible.

Needless to say, it is still a Communist dictatorship.  But the Party realized that they had a very tall order to fill if they wanted to remain in power.  They really had to make people’s lives better, and the measure of that was there for all to see.  The West, with its cars, and vacations, and capacity for individual expression was the yardstick.  China became a meritocracy in many ways and the legacy of Communism forced it to have the trappings of equality and fairness.  The best students could soar as high as their professional and personal aspirations allowed.  Well, not so much for human right’s lawyers and political columnists and consultants, but definitely in the sciences and engineering etc. No more fear being called a running dog of the capitalists.

All that leaves aside the problem of corruption and the unequal opportunity for the Princelings and Princess of the Red Families, the children of the high party members. It is well known and I know it up close, but I will leave it for others to describe.

I have met a couple of Americans on this trip who seem genuinely angry that Mao’s picture oversees Tiananmen and his mausoleum stands in its center.  How can a man who caused so much suffering still be publicly venerated?  It’s a good question, one that is difficult to get a straight answer from otherwise frank and forthcoming Chinese people who I know.  They acknowledge the horror of much of his legacy, but will often turn the discussion to the old days, the humiliation of China by the West and Japan over the last 150 years or so, and that Mao took the first steps to reverse that.  China has a long history and they have the patience to endure the slow turning of its wheel - it seems to be built into the Chinese psyche.  History takes a long time to sort itself out.  Faulkner said, (I’ve said this in another context recently so I am sick of hearing myself think it) “The past isn’t ever dead.  It isn’t even the past.” And of course Zhou Enlai answered the question about the long term effects of the French Revolution with the quip, “It’s too soon to tell.”  The more you study the past the more it stares you in the face as you look out at the world.  Even though China has seemed to have erased its past with the amazing physical modernization of the last quarter century, the robe-cloaked scholars of the Qing dynasty still stroll among the high rises where once winding hutongs stood. Its there behind the eyes of the old ones and buried in the national consciousness. It’s just too soon for the Chinese to really come to grips with the question of Mao.

So the first cities I visited were really for gawking.  I didn’t know anyone, but strolled out around the parks and museums like Jed Clampett on Rodeo Drive.  
Xian April 29 (Sorry for flipping back and forth - not a device, just the way it is coming out)

I got off the train and immediately realized I my bowels were about to revolt.  Perhaps they remained quiet on the train because other than when I have been camping, I haven’t used a squat shitter since - well 30 some years ago.  

OK, let's start closer to the beginning here, a little more politely.  I had several reasons for making this trip, and returning to China after 30 years.  Some personal, some just wide-eyed, wanderlust and hunger to see what history had done to my old place.  But perhaps foremost in my mind was to find Lingna, Qi XInghua’s widow and their son, who I remembered as seven year old XuanXuan.  

I have written about Qi before, his passing was a great blow, and I still feel it.  We were born within six months of each other during the Korean War when Americans and Chinese were killing each other.  We knew each other in both America and in China, and I always assumed we would be old men visiting and communicating with one another into our dotage.  Anyway, after teaching me Chinese at the University of Oregon, he returned to Xian Medical School, and the next year invited me to teach English there.

So last week, when I got off the train, I saw the first thing that I remember from  32 years ago when I got off the train in Xian on a hot August day in 1985 - the back gate to the inner city, down Jiefang lu - Liberation Avenue.  It was 5 in the morning, relatively cool still, so I decided to walk to Medical school, where I had taught.   My hotel was in that direction generally, but I didn’t think they would have a room ready for me this early.  First things first though. I saw the Hilton Hotel was on my way, inside the city so I kept my eye out for it because I had to go baaad, and it was getting worse.  But, eventually I got there, rushed through the lobby and nature took its course in the proper place, and I washed my hands and headed out of the Hilton, thanking them in my own way for their hospitality.

Xian had changed, but inside the city walls the town was still recognizable. The streets had not needed to be dug up and widened, because they were wide before.  New hotels were up, but some of the old ones remained, like the Sofitel on Renmin Square, which had ties to the local government and was so massive it had historical significance.

The first real significant change was at Gulou, the South Gate, from the inside of the city.  There used to be a traffic circle and some rundown shops there, but now it was all rebuilt, with bike lanes, basically it had a whole facelift.

But it was outside the walls on the south side where the change was striking.  Brand names plastered all over the gleaming skyscrapers that surrounded the gate.  There is a moat in front of the South gate and adjoining walls as well.  That brought back a memory…

My good friend Jim Barry, the legendary correspondent who left China in December of 1985, after reporting on a killing of a Muslim by an ethnic Chinese and China’s slow move to prosecute the crime.  His Voice of America reports led to huge crowds of Muslims gathering at their Mosque, which made the Chinese nervous and led to them asking Jim and his wife Mikki to leave China at their earliest convenience, like tomorrow.  After that, Jim trekked into Afghanistan at the height of their war against the Russians and reported from the back of caves with a squad of hash smoking Mujahadeen while the Russian helicopters pummeled the cave entrance with rockets. (later Jim would be the only reporter to ever get John Gotti to answer questions at length on camera.) Anyway, on his leaving China, Jim willed me his connection with Reuter's News service in Beijing and said if I had a story, call this number, and if they run it they will give me $50.

So, back to the Moat. It happened a couple of months later, during the tradition called Lantern Festival which falls right after Chinese New Year.  In Xian, people make beautiful multicolored lamps and hang them on their roof.  People then climb up on the high, thick walls around the city built during the Ming Dynasty and look down at all the lights from the lanterns after dark.   

The next day I saw a procession of trucks into the medical school where I worked.  I was standing next to the President Elect of the University, Ren, who liked to practice his English with the four or five foreigners who worked on Campus. He told me that 24 people had been pushed by the surging crowds looking to see the lanterns. They had been pushed off the wall on to the rocks around the moat below, killing them.  They were bringing the bodies to the medical school, for what I suspect was autopsies, or to be used for research, not really sure why.  I remember Ren telling me, ”It is such a shame this happened.  When the foreign press reports on this, I am sure it will make China look uncivilized.”

Ding, DIng, Ding. Foreign press?  Oh, yeah, I am a “stringer” for Reuters. Yes, a story, I have a story.  $50 was a lot of money.  My monthly salary for teaching in China back then was I think 400 yuan RMB, maybe 500, I can’t clearly remember. At the black market exchange rate, (RMB was not officially convertible to dollars back then) of 7 to 1 my Chinese monthly salary was  $60 - $70 dollars.  So I went to a nearby hotel, (which I would discover has been replaced by a bigger fancier Chinese hotel now) and called Reuters.  They asked how to confirm, I said call the police station in Xian.

I  called back later in the week, to find out how I get my money, but  the Xian cops denied it ever happened.  No $50.  I forgot about it.

About two months later, Qi, my friend and boss came to my room.  We talked casually for a while and then, almost in a by-the-by manner, he asked me if I had called a newspaper about the people who were killed on the wall?  I said yes and he said the internal security want to throw me out of the country because of it.  He asked if I planned to continue making calls to newspapers and I said no.  He said not to worry he would take care of it.

So that was my journalism career  in a nutshell.  As I said, the moat is still there as are the Ming Dynasty Walls.  

It is about 6-7 KM from the train station to the Medical school, where I formerly taught, so I continued south down the main north-south Avenue, now a long canyon of skyscrapers. I had about 50 lb in my big Osprey backpack, but I had been walking every day all day for three weeks, so it wasn’t too hard, even in the growing morning heat. I got the school and approached the old gate, which had changed little except for the electric crossing gates for the cars.  The guard was my age and I asked, had he known Qi.? No.  Could I go in and walk around, and he said no. It hadn't sunk in that I was stymied and might never find Lingna -  But - just as I started to turn to leave an older lady, (my age) came up and said “Qi Xinghua!” Her name is Xu Ji ru, and she had been Qi’s student and was now a professor of Microbiology at the school.  She had lived over in Belfast during the “Troubles” when the Real IRA was bombing pubs and the police were shooting Catholic demonstrators.  Anyway, we toured the campus, which was much prettier now, the trees had grown up and there was grass everywhere, like a real campus, not the dusty stalag it had been in 1985.

She didn’t know where Lingna was, and we went to her office and she made calls, asked a few people but they didn’t know or guessed.  We became WeChat friends, and she said she would keep trying. A day later, her grapevine paid off and she found out that Lingna was living with her son’s family, Xuan Xuan, now 38, a Phd from Qinghua, (the MIT of China) with (I found out all this later when I met him) a dissertation in Artificially Intelligent Automation, a CEO of a start up with 65 of the best programmers in China working on the next generations of networking software. He is funded by some famous American companies, and eally likes what he is doing..

A few days later, when I got to Beijing,  we had a great reunion in Beijing, really emotional.  Lingna is a busy grandmother and looks to be a fit 50 year old, not her real age, which if you know mine, you know hers. She and I walked around the Temple of Heaven in Beijing. Lingna never learned to speak English very well and she has forgotten most of it, but she really wanted to communicate with me.  So we talked for more than two hours as we walked.  She said hi to Mary my wife, who she knew well and liked when we lived in Xian.  

My first novel was dedicated to Qi in the foreword and I gave them a copy, which her completely fluent in English son, little Xuan Xuan, now Qi Yaxuan, (his name means Asia Blazing), said he would read.  I wish the novel was more worthy of his father’s memory, but it was the best I could do.

I have other friends in Beijing who I visited too, former students, who also knew and got to met Lingna for the first time in 30 years, and they were all grateful to me for putting them together. I went to the new National Theater for a performance, visited the other tourist spots in my way, went to my other school where I taught, the Foreign Language Institute in the University district, met other people there, (but none of my former colleagues there, unfortunately) walked, and took lots of pictures which I will post when I have a chance. I ate lots of street food and had a number of other interesting adventures, which maybe I'll write about later - or save for my fiction...

It’s Friday May 12 and I am in Siberia.  Crossing the border was interesting last night.  About three Russians came on board the train, a big, crew cut tough looking young man said “Please exit compartment.”  He came in and popped open the ceiling tiles.  Each car has a porter who has a small compartment on the end, but right now, (Since Ulan Baatar) I have been the only passenger on the this car.  So me and the Chinese porter have become friends.  Anyway as the tough looking Russians came in, the porter said Ni hao - “Nee How” - hello - The Russian answered “Nee Who” and laughed.  So I guess I am in the West now - sort of…

Anyway a woman came in and for the first time didn’t take my passport away to study for 20 minutes, but stood right there with some little Star Trek Tricorder looking device, scanned the passport, asked me, “Tourist?”  “Yes.” She looked at me closely, then at my passport picture. Handed me my passport.  I said “spa-see-ba” thank you and smiled. My first Russian conversation! Its 5:30 am. They changed the car configuration last night, so the dining car is now four cars back instead of just one. They jacked up the cars to put in the narrow gauge wheels for the Russian Railroad. (The Russians use a different gauge rail to slow down the Germans when they invade.)  The Mongolian crew headed back across the desert, and the beautiful up country - flowing streams, excellent grazing land, colorful houses - a place where you almost envy the people who live there in the same way you envy prosperous ranchers - except the ranch houses were little, and there were no pickup trucks around, and the horses were smaller.  

That is all behind me now.  The internet works now!  I have google and Facebook again. Yuk.  Oh well, have to face the music some day. I was hoping the impeachment would be well on its way by now.

Coming into Ulan Ude, a pretty big town on a winding river surrounded by beautiful hills, spoiled by several horrible polluting factories that I can smell from inside the car.  The sun is up, it is after 6 am.  The Chinese porter says that now that we are in Russia, the dining car won’t open until at least 8 am, maybe not until 9 am. We are in Russia, he says, they are still sleeping.  I look out into the back yards of the wooden Siberian shacks along the tracks and I see no activity of people stirring.  One or two men walking around, in a seeming daze.  OK, let's not draw any conclusions just yet...

In the dining car - I forgot to change my Chinese money to Rubles - I am hungry. They accept American dollar so I will break a fifty and hope for some change - eggs, coffee and bread. Grenkee - toast. Whole other world here. The Chinese porter warned me.

The land is familiar though. More trees.  


Iruktsk is about the size of Portland.  It is a river town, and is growing slowly.  First day I walked back to the Train Station across the river from the main part of town and bought a ticket to Omsk for Tuesday.  I met some Chinese people in line and they helped me out with the purchase as my Russian is still not strong enough to trust myself with things like buying a non-refundable train ticket. I do trust my Chinese however and I became WeChat friends with my translators.   

Stopped in several smart looking businesses run by young people who speak good English and were fun and interesting to talk to.

I spent about two hours on the train riding passed Lake Baikal and it is everything it is made out to be. Big, deep, largest freshwater body of water, by volume, in the world. One of the young Russians said to come back and spend a week camping about three hours from Irkutsk to the north. But the 3-hour tours from the city were not interesting, there was nothing special to see. So I am skipping the tour and do plan to come back and camp. This is such a big big country.

Anyway I am sitting in a friendly coffee shop now.  My three days here have been spent walking around the town, listening to my Michel Thomas Russian Language lessons on my phone, then stopping people on the street or in the shops to try out phrases and words.  It is working! I am slowing beginning to understand and make myself understood. A long long way from fluent, but I don’t care. Next stop Omsk, where Dostoyevki was exiled.  Maybe I’ll find him sitting on a park bench somewhere and I can try out some more phrases.  I am loving this whole deal.

Tuesday, April 25, 2017



I don’t know what connectivity will be like from cheap hotels in China, so I thought better get this done.  I am lying in bed, the sun is coming up, and I have to pack and be out of here soon.

Hanoi is defined against its rival Saigon, in the same way that Berlin is defined against Vienna, Seattle against Portland (Portland -”You comparing us to that pretentious place?” Seattle: “Where?” )  or Beijing against Shanghai.  Saigon is more frenetic, definitely more entrepreneurial, varied, and cunning.  Past is prologue, and the Americans left their mark on Saigon, for better and for worse.

Hanoi, is more self-confident I think.  The Government is here in a big way.  It seems like half of the city (the north side) is one big government compound, and they live well there.  The coffee houses around Ho Chi Minh Mausoleum are filled with the adult children of officials, hanging out, flirting with each other,  posting photos of each other.  They dress very chic-ly, talk loudly in public and seem confident of their future.

In the old town district, where the streets are narrow and winding it is different.  Everyone has a little business that they put out on the sidewalk, selling everything and anything. Handmade postcards, whole kiosks filled with door hinges, travel companies, and of course food. Lots of food, specialized, and often cooked right there in front of you.  The foreign business presence is not as great, (as Saigon).  The tourists are mostly from Europe, young Germans, and Brits and Scandinavians mostly, but maybe that is just the season.      

The lakes in the middle of the city really give the place a serene feel. They are a place where you can walk a block from the bustle and sit and look at the lake and think you are in the country somewhere.  There are two main lakes, Hoy Tai, which is huge, in the northern section near the government area.  And Hoan Kiem which is smaller and in the old section of the city. There is a broad paved walkway around both of them, and there you can see the personal side of Hanoi on the park benches, people being most intimate and sincere. Saigon has nothing like these lakes.

The hotel I am staying at the Graceful Hanoi Hotel, made all the difference.  They are so nice, they serve a great breakfast, and room is perfect.  And I can afford it, let’s just say I got a good deal.  If they raise their prices it will still be a bargain.

Anyway, I have to pack for China now.  I am looking forward to being in a place where I can speak the language and seeing some of my old students.   But right now, Vietnam is the place to be.  It is open, easy and cheap to get a visa, and amazingly welcoming to all tourists.

Sunday, April 23, 2017

Leaving Saigon

On the train, just leaving Hue station. Its about 6 am and I guess I slept ok. Left yesterday morning about 9:00 am.  It is a long ride up the coast of Vietnam.  

My last night in Saigon was eventful, I should have taken more pictures.  I finally met Dave Fox, a travel writer from Seattle who lives in Saigon with his wife Kattina, a teacher at the International school.  We both have the same publisher and our editor Linda Franklin put us together.
I had spent the afternoon at the Cu Cui Tunnel site, about 60 Km up the Saigon River, not far from the Cambodian border. I took a speedboat tour with some Aussies and New Zealanders and we had a great guide.    Cu Cui was a battlefield where the VC held out against constant attacks over several years.  It is the start of the highlands, and when you get off the boat it is a steady rise into a sparse forest. During the Tet Offensive, about 19,000 VC troops were stationed here.  There were no permanent facilities as we think of them because the area was subject to bombardment and frequent incursions of South Vietnamese Army and Americans.  But the tunnel systems and the methods of camouflaging them was amazingly complex.  They had logistics and defense systems that applied ancient and modern technology at every junction. Every student of military matters should come here. There were 75 miles of tunnels, and they used no heavy machinery or concrete to build them.  All hand dug, with shovels and baskets. It would be interesting to study to learn why a modern juggernaut like the US military was stymied here.  

But our guide was no propagandist for the Communist government - much the opposite.  His father had been a fighter pilot in the South Vietnamese Army and most of his family lives in the US.  He was full of interesting facts I hadn’t been aware of.  For example during the Christmas Bombing of 1972, according to our guide, the Vietnamese Politburo had written up a letter of surrender, if the bombing had continued, (he said) for only one more day.  I seem to remember the reason we gave for stopping it, (no WiFi here so flying on memory)  was to figure out how to stop the Vietnamese from shooting down so many of our B-52s. A woman from Wichita I knew at that time,  whose Dad worked for Boeing on the B-52s and said he had been working night and day trying to figure out a way to avoid the Russian-made SAM missiles that could hit the planes at 72,000 ft.   Our guide said the real reason we stopped the Christmas bombing of Hanoi was because the Russians threatened to start a nuclear war if we didn’t stop. I think I remember Nixon claimed we were close to a truce, but am foggy about that too. I am going to do some research when I get back to sort all that out, but if anyone reading this knows more about the situation around the Christmas bombing please comment.

Anyway, it was a very interesting trip, and pleasant too in the heat on the speeding boat.  A few miles outside Saigon, it is the jungle on both sides, although you can see development is creeping out.  I thought about what it would have been like to fight there, and am very glad, for many reasons that I missed it.

It was very dry at Cu Cui, the mud was hard. One of the Aussies asked our guide, wasn’t it supposed to be the rainy season?  He said, yes, it was late this year, it should start any day.

Looking out the window of the train, I see the rain has just started.  I think we are now in what was North Vietnam, north of the 17th parallel. Rice paddies as far as I can see on both sides of the train.  At about the 20th hour on the train. This is the richest agricultural land I have ever seen.    

So after I got back from Cu Cui, I met Dave at the Whistling Seal Bar just down Dang Thi Nhu street from my hotel, the Quy Hung. When I come back to Saigon I am staying there, because I have made friends with everyone (and it’s pretty cheap).   The Whistling Seal is owned and operated by a young American who told me that the beer scene in Saigon was taking off and that a number of breweries had opened in town in the last six months.  He brewed all his beers and I tried a couple, and they were good. Even though I live in Portland, I am generally not a beer drinker, (too many calories for this old mesomorph) but the Whistling Seal  Hef was very good.  Anyway eventually Dave showed up and we had one more and then walked down to Bui Vien street, which I had missed in my self-guided three-day walking tour of Saigon.  Dave called Bui Vien street the “backpacker’s ghetto”, and on cue, there were lots of westerners wandering around.  It definitely had a hip feel and the shops reflected it.  An old propaganda poster store was right next to a massage parlor.  Teams of cheerful, beautiful young women gently tried to coax young foreign men into their establishments. To me, they were respectful and deferential.  Respect for age has not completely died in Asia. There was a movie house down the street. I only made it about a quarter of the way down the street before we stopped, but I imagined San Francisco might have had this feel in the summer during the 50s.

Dave was acknowledged by many of the locals and we stopped at his favorite spot, sat out on little chairs on the sidewalk and drank Saigon beer - amazingly cheap, less than 50 cents a bottle.  We were joined by a couple of educated English speaking hipsters who said they were Thai. They had just met each other that evening oddly and were extremely smart and they both had a sophisticated understanding of society and world politics that you rarely find  even among older Europeans. We were joined by an Aussie about my age, who lives in Bangkok, and for reasons he did not explain, said he, “will never go back to Australia”.
So we sat, drank, and talked, and I felt very much among interesting friends, at ease, at home, and I watched the action on the street, which was a kaleidoscopic verte theater.

I don’t want to steal any thunder from Dave, because he has written some travel books, (Globejotting, published by Inkwater Press - and is working on one about the local Saigoners who live on Bui Vien street.  He has worked with and for Rick Steves and has an extremely sympathetic eye for the hard difficulties of the local people trying to make a living and feed their families on the streets of Saigon.  I am going to order his book on writing Travel Journals (Globejotting) as soon as I get back. (I definitely need some guidance). But for the short time I spent with him, the Bui Vien street experience was fun and eye-opening, maybe a  high point of my visit to Saigon. Dave loves the city.  He said what he really loves is the spirit of "getting it done" that surpasses anything he has found elsewhere.  I see it.  People step up to help strangers with no ceremony and accept the inconvenience others might cause them with a relaxed “let me help you fix it” attitude.  It isn’t just because I am a foreigner and they are hoping to make that connection, although there is some of that of course.  But everyone applies their best effort and ingenuity to finding practical workarounds to the many inconveniences of living here. And that makes all the difference between a drag and a delight.

Dave’s wife Kattina showed up and joined the conversation, adding some funny acerbic observations about conversation and behavior of the rest of us, who were further into our cups than she was. Soon it was time to go, because I had to get up early to catch this train.  As for Bui Vien street,  I have to stress that the company and the conversation was only icing on the cake of the evening.  If all I had done was sat and watched the street, it would have an amazing experience.  It was a 360 degree carnival of reality, commercial, yes, but lively and in the moment.  Life is what you make it, and they make it well here in Saigon.      

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Saigon 2 More pictures

Sleep is so profoundly healing. Every once in a while there is nothing better than an afternoon nap.