I secretly prayed for a hurricane during my summer visits.
They teach me retirement is just like the rest of life, I am on my own, with no map, only a definite destination.
All She Ever Wanted
By T.L. Cooper
I
like fiction with a plot that moves quickly, spiky dialogue, humor,
characters who don't take themselves too seriously. I really like
when they make me laugh a bit, whether it is self-depreciating, or
even a bit cruel. All
She Ever Wanted
(ASEW)
is
not on my usual literary menu. For me, ASEW
was
almost a visit to a bizarro Shang-Gri-La world, where everyone speaks
earnestly about mundane things, Southern things, in serious fully
formed sentences from which no satirical irony can be detected in the
least. It is not about the deep South, but the Border South, you can
tell because the Border South is - well on the border - not the heart
of Faulkner's darkness, but Kentucky Horse Country. It is page after
page of descriptions of the paint on the walls, the color of the
carpets, the plait on the dresses, the heels on the shoes. But
unpleasantries between people are avoided like moldy leftovers. The
novel was outside my usual reading comfort zone, but ultimately, and
oddly, if I may say, it was satisfying. It is without question the
most blatant work of 'women's fiction' I have ever read. I needed
to read it. I think it gave me insight into the 'inner workings' of
the women I have known and continue to know. Observing my reaction to
it was a therapeutic exercise. It gave me insight into my own world
view, of its blindspots, preconceptions, and prejudices.
All
She Ever Wanted
is
a slow moving, Southern story about a self-involved, tightly wrapped,
spoiled woman, who achieves worldly success at the price of – well
- everything that is important in life, such as love and fun.
Victoria Caldwell is the product of an upper class, horsey, up-tight
family, where appearances really count, and where the exterior social
trappings - clothes, furniture, hairstyles, - are everything. The
novel begins with Victoria musing about her past and we are taken
back to her college years. She is date-raped by a frat boy, an event
which casts a long shadow on her future romantic life. Then to make
it much worse, she gets no support from her sorority sisters, and so
that sours her trust in women as well. College would have been dismal
but for her only friend, a black man her age, Daryn, who comes from a
prosperous, functional southern family.
Daryn
is demonstrably not gay, but his relationship with Victoria has all
the outward markings of a stereotypical straight woman - gay man
friendship. They never get together in bed, even though Victoria’s
dreams all point to that being what she really wants; but because of
her entrenched southern womanhood 'thing', she can never have it.
That longing is something Victoria would deny until she was blue
in the face, but the evidence - her soapy bathtub daydreaming, and
her constant obsessive need to be near Daryn indicates
otherwise.
Tragic
things happen, and Victoria never really breaks through. She tries to
escape from her self-imposed trap that requires propriety in all
things, and to truly live, but it doesn't happen-not until the very
very end, which is presented as a final breakout for her but - as a
reader, I have my doubts she really makes it. Throughout the 532
pages, she returns to her 'bread and butter' ways of coping –solitude,
hot bubble baths, and long scenes played out in her head that always
seem to justify her cold outwardness, which pushes away everyone and
allows her to deny her own desires. My anger at Victoria eventually
turned to pity.
It
is a book about the modern South. There is a touch of Scarlette
O'Hara in Victoria. She gets possession of her great-great
grandmother's diaries which detail the end of the Civil War and
Reconstruction and we read how her slave and Plantation owning family
dealt with that transformation – and we see that self-pity and
self-involvement is a long standing family trait.
I
have half-southern roots myself and like Chis Rock describing why OJ
murdered Nicole Simpson and Ron Goldman, “I don't condone it
– but I understand it.” By that I mean when reading about how
Southerners are trapped by their own history and their devotion to
backward, deluded and feudal romantic ideals and patterns of
behavior, I understand it even if I reject being burdened with it. I
have sat in my maternal grandmother's kitchen and eaten corn bread, home-made jam, honey-combed honey, and fresh eggs, and
grits, and fatty fried ham and listened to the lyrical, half-true
memories of my North Carolina kin and I felt the pull of the family,
of the land and - well kinship - and depending on the day, it is as
strongly imprinted on me as my New Jersey 'fooget-about-it'
side. I do understand Victoria's cold refusal to surrender to her.
own humanity, and her need to 'measure up' to tradition and
expectations that are unrealistic and soul destroying. But I don't
condone it.
I
was angry at Victoria through most of the whole read - but that
doesn't mean I disliked the book. A good book makes you grow and
understand things you didn't understand before. ASEW taught
me some things or rather reflected back at me parts of humanity I
tend to ignore otherwise.
The
book is technically well crafted. Cooper is a fine honer of sentences and
paragraphs. For the reader – it perhaps it should have been more
viciously and brutally edited. But then it wouldn't have been the
flowery, endless search for a perfection that can never be found.
I owe a debt of gratitude to William F. Buckley. He ranks high among the people who have influenced my intellectual development such as it is. Of course, this debt I owe, is mostly due to his show “Firing Line” which I started watching as an adolescent. <= There. That previous sentence. "Of course this..", notice the smug, unconsciously snobbish attitude. (what a smart boy I must have been to watch Firing Line!) Buckley brought that attitude to all of his work, both on camera and on the printed page, and perhaps it affected me, probably more deeply than I know.
For example, the introductory music to Firing Line, Bach's Brandenburg Concerto #2, which repeated on each weekly session, was my first introduction to classical music. I don't think he influenced my politics all that much, although perhaps he gave me some tools with which to think about it. But he probably did make me a snob. Hearing the music week after week, allowed me to really think about other works of music in the same way. And I started holding a pencil up to my face when I talked to people too. And all that was just from the show's introduction, before anyone said anything.
There was an adolescent quality to Buckley, (WFB) a giddy delight in gently tormenting people with his wit that appealed to teenage boys such as myself. His Bradford Oakes, novels, adventures of a young WFB doppelganger recruited into the CIA from Yale in the early 50s, were really almost Hardy Boy adventures. Saving the Queen, which has an outrageous premise as its hook, (and I won't tell you what it is and don't Google it – save it if you are going to read it.) brings back that delight he seemed to have in reviling in the travails of youth.
Saving the Queen is the introduction of Bradford Oakes, the first of ten novels about the war hero and son of Charles Lindbergh's very best friend. Oakes is a tongue in cheek version of WFB himself. The fictional Oakes, a former student at an exclusive English school for boys, had a profligate mother who was divorced from his rich father, an aviation executive and dare devil pilot.
In the story, Oakes praises the real Buckley, notable WFB's first published work “God and Man at Yale”. It is an interesting attempt to break the fourth wall, bringing reality into the fiction, but it also displays why Buckley just wasn't cut out to be more than a mildly entertaining fiction writer: he is clearly winking at his audience, going for the cheap laugh. But that in itself makes his fiction bearable because his stories seem to have to no other self-awareness within themselves. Oakes never has any doubt about his place in the upper-class world he was born into. He doesn't have any friends except for, as his mother calls them, PLUs, People Like Us. He can't escape his need for his characters to engage in right-wing polemics, justifying McCarthyism and political paranoia of the 1950s. The story - someone close to the young Queen of England, (the fictional Caroline, a cousin of the recently deceased Elizabeth II) is feeding the Soviets technical information about the Hydrogen Bomb. The young Queen is bright and unhappy in her role as a symbolic ruler of Britannia, and takes it out on the Prime Minister by questioning him incessantly about the real state of Britain’s defenses, (How many Nuclear Weapons do we have? What is their mega-tonnage?) Oakes is inserted into London's society by the CIA and becomes acquainted with her Majesty and somewhat woodenly solves the problem. I'll leave you to decide what I mean by woodenly.
Buckley is perhaps trying to write a contrary-mirror satire of John LeCarre spy novels, a writer to whom he has elsewhere shown his disdain. Buckley didn't like the moral ambivalence in The Spy who Came in From the Cold or Tinker Taylor Soldier Spy. The West was 100% right to do anything to protect ourselves against Soviet dominion. Since his hero never has any moral doubts, his fiction doesn't really breath.
Buckley is no prig. His alter ego hero Oakes gets laid and drunk with regularity. He has a proper girl back home who he secretly sleeps with, and his prostitutes, (mostly French of course) are happy-go-lucky girls who enjoy their work and live under the dominion of a wise and caring madam. There is no darkness in their lives, at least as far as Oakes is concerned.
In the end, the novel is dated and silly, wrapped up too neatly to take seriously. The premise is brilliant, but in my opinion, he flubs it.
I walked next to William F. Buckley in an airport once, and we chatted, and he was very friendly and engaging. It was in the late 70s and I had very long hair, but I told him I loved Firing Line and always read his columns. He laughed and told me, looking at my hair and sensing my leftwardness I suppose, that I wasn't reading them with the correct attitude.
If you read a summary of his ideas today they are shockingly out of synch with even modern conservative principles. He supported white supremacy and was very homophobic. But then he came out for the legalization of marijuna in 1965, and strongly condemned Bush the Dumber's war in Iraq in his last years. And he argued fairly and entertainingly and explored ideas rather than just positions, and people who disagreed with him had a full opportunity to prevail if they could. And sometimes, when watching him, I think fair-minded people would agree they did prevail and he accepted it. Think about FOX News today. They could learn a lot re-watching old Firing Line shows.
But Saving the Queen is a curiosity for those like myself who were drawn into Buckley's world and want to relive it a little and soak up Buckley's elegant pomposity. But it is not great fiction.